how is it that i always fall for the ones i can't have. Its like when i look into his eyes i want to fade away, melt in his arms, sing a song. I dont even know if he feels the same way i try and fight it say it wont work it cant be he doesn't care but deep down i know i'm wrong i cant let it go. i try and forget about him try thinking about how it is wrong or not able then i can't sleep and i find myself thinking about him more. i can wait for him...cant i? i am so use to being hurt and guys only wanting one thing but its different i know it is. he lives far away i only spent a couple of months with him how can i feel this way. i think maybe i just fall to fast. why cant i get him off my mind everyone says no it wont work you cant wait it's going to blow up in your face. i try but when i talk to him i light up put me in a dark building i will light it up put me in a dark city and i could light it up too. my heart fills with happiness and i drift away in his words to his voice. it kills me not to know how he really feels but i don't want to ask him because i'm scared. i sometimes feel as if i am going to drive myself crazy. i get nervous before i call him, i get a shortness of breath. i can't love him because i don't really know him. i can hide in his eyes and dream of his smile. i forget my problems they all just fade away....